BRAVE STAR
singing like a slow scent beneath the sunArchive for July, 2007
077.
ho hum. ho ho hum. i had a dream last night that i was dressed up like santa claus. i am going crazy. thanks.
time for me to make some dinner.
a
075.
roar. i feel like i’ve been hibernating for the past few days. despite the fact that it has been hot hot hot outside. yes, three times the heat. i think i went delirious for a little bit. i definitely danced in my room by myself for at least two hours last night. it was fantastic. then i tried to teach myself capoeira…not so fantastic. lol. i’ve been working on some poems. mainly editing. writing some new lines here and there. i also made some tasty oatmeal cookies. haven’t been doing much other than eating, writing, and sleeping. i’ve lost track of how much i slept yesterday and the day before but it was a whole bunch…oh, i finally watched babel. the language concept was ingenious, especially the deaf-mute girl, but otherwise i wasn’t crazy about the movie. oh well…so, tommorrow is the beginning of my “vacation.” i haven’t not had to work in a long time. i don’t really know what to do with all this so-called free time. suggestions on how i might entertain myself?
good wishes,
a
074.
I was in the coffee shop earlier today half working on my Brave Star Proposal and half daydreaming, and I look up and see a fuzzy yellow caterpillar crawling on my table. It was so strange! But also strangely wonderful! I’ve been seeing the most beautiful yellow butterflies all over lately and they make me smile every time as if they were my own secret gift from nature. I can’t believe I’m about to say that holding a caterpillar was the highlight of my day…but it was!
a good wish,
a
073.
hello lovelies,
i’ve been MIA, i know.
here’s a little somethin, somethin for y’all.
check it: Elegy after the flood.
enjoy!
heart to all,
a
072.
on where i’ve been:
i’m okay, just doin the day-to-day. i could be better. aside from being technically/technologically out of touch, i’ve been feelin really disconnected lately. from friends. from life. from myself. i don’t really know what’s going on. i’ve been spending a lot of time on my own, taking a pause, trying to think things through. i guess i’m feeling unsettled about what i want for myself right now. in terms of how i want to spend my time. in terms of what i want to accomplish for myself. in terms of what i want to invest myself in. sometimes i think i want stillness and peace, but other times i feel restless and bored and this is something that i am not used to. something i haven’t experienced in a long while. i think i may be in the middle of a transformation. like i just need a moment to be all cocooned up or something before i emerge again. but i’m trying to take advantage of it. i’ve been writing. sorting through ideas. finishing up other projects and making advances on following-thru on old ideas. i am feeling powerful like what i put my mind to right now could really blossom/explode wonderfully. and i’ve been feeding myself, reading some beautiful stories, watching some good movies, dancing to new music, but i am still hungry. have you ever had a craving but didn’t quite know the taste of what you desired? that’s what i feel like right now…
071.
waste some time with the impossible quiz:
1. go to http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/365143
2. click on play this game.
3. never get anything else done again.
070.
a little bit of zora today:
“She had found a jewel down inside herself and she had wanted to walk where people could see her and gleam it around. But she had been set in the market-place to sell. Been set for still bait. When God had made The Man, he made him out of stuff that sung all the time and glittered all over. Then after that some angels got jealous and chopped him into millions of pieces, but still he glittered and hummed. So they beat him down to nothing but sparks but each little spark had a shine and a song. So they covered each one over with mud. And the lonesomeness in the sparks made them hunt for one another, but the mud is deaf and dumb. Like all the other tumbling mud-balls, Janie had tried to show her shine.”
keep shining y’all,
a
069.
today in the NY Times:
Writers Like Me
By Martha Southgate
I am a 46-year-old writer of “literary” fiction. I’ve had three novels published — the first for young people, the last two for adults. All have won minor prizes, been respectfully reviewed and sold modestly. I’ve been awarded a few fairly competitive fellowships and grants. The business is full of fiction writers like me. With one difference: I’m black, born and raised in the United States. At the parties and conferences I attend, and in the book reviews I read, I rarely encounter other African-American “literary” writers, particularly in my age bracket. There just don’t seem to be that many of us out there, and that’s something I’ve come to wonder about a great deal. And so I got on the phone with some editors and African-American writers to talk about it.
For many writers, middle age is when they hit their stride. Robert Gottlieb of Knopf, who has been Toni Morrison’s editor for many years, said, “Many very fine writers take time to get there.” Looking at the white American fiction writers who have the most cultural prominence, one quickly sees a large group in their 40s or 50s (Michael Chabon, Jonathan Franzen, Rick Moody, Jane Smiley, Michael Cunningham et al.) who have generally had four or more major works of fiction published. Gottlieb points out that Morrison’s first two books sold adequately, but it wasn’t until her third novel, “Song of Solomon,” published the year she turned 46, that she had a commercial breakthrough. “It was larger and more ambitious, demonstrating a new power and authority, and the world noticed,” he said. “Some careers start with a bang — ‘Invisible Man,’ ‘Catch-22.’ Others take time to find a significant readership — Anne Tyler, Toni. And sometimes I feel that those are the healthiest ones.”
But when you look at the careers of African- American writers, you don’t always see that healthy arc. Ralph Ellison, for example, seemed to lose his way completely after “Invisible Man.” These days, there are only a few names of black authors born in the United States, beyond Morrison’s, that the average reader of serious fiction might easily drop — Colson Whitehead, ZZ Packer, Edward P. Jones. Of these three, only Jones is over 40.
In some ways, the American literary scene is more racially and culturally diverse than ever. A few examples: Of the 21 writers on Granta’s recent Best of Young American Novelists list, six (including Packer and Uzodinma Iweala) are people of color (many colors: black, South and East Asian, Hispanic), and seven were born or raised outside the United States. Indian writers born or educated here, like Jhumpa Lahiri, Vikram Chandra and Kiran Desai, win critical acclaim and big sales. “Girlfriend,” “urban-lit” and other branches of commercial genre fiction by African-Americans have continued to enjoy a boom since the door-busting success of Terry McMillan’s “Waiting to Exhale” in 1992. But black authors writing in an ambitious, thoughtful way about American subjects are harder to find — even when they do get published. Malaika Adero, a senior editor at Atria Books, said: “Literary African-American writers have difficulty getting publicity. The retailers then don’t order great quantities of the books. Readers don’t know what books are available and therefore don’t ask for them. It’s a vicious cycle.”
Though the publishing industry remains overwhelmingly white, editors say they are always looking for good, marketable work by writers of any background. Morgan Entrekin, publisher of Grove/Atlantic, which recently published Michael Thomas’s first novel, “Man Gone Down” — one of the few novels by an African-American to grace the cover of this publication of late — said: “I don’t tend to approach the black writers we publish as African-American. I see them as writers first.”
But there’s colorblindness, and then there’s blindness. Christopher Jackson, executive editor at Spiegel & Grau, a division of Random House, tells a story about being mistaken for Iweala at the launch party for Granta’s Best of Young American Novelists issue — even though Iweala is more than 10 years Jackson’s junior, had just left the stage as an honoree and, frankly, doesn’t look much like Jackson. Let’s face it, something like that is awfully unlikely to happen to a white editor or writer. It’s hard to say whether this obtuseness translates into a lack of interest in African-American work, but some black writers think it might. The novelist Tayari Jones, author of “The Untelling,” said: “I know that there are very few black authors who publish the fourth novel. Hardly any of us are considered prestige authors, so no one is going to sign us up for our names alone.” Calvin Reid, a senior news editor at Publishers Weekly, who often covers African-American publishing, agrees that black writers stuck in the midlist face an uphill battle, but he sees it as a business reality, not a racial thing: “If you have two or three books out and you’ve never sold more than 3,000 copies, people make decisions based on that.”
Things are tough all over, but arguably tougher for some. For many black writers, a writing life very rarely unfolds the way it does for so many white writers you could name: know you want to be a writer from the age of 10, get your first book published at 26, go on to produce slowly but steadily over a lengthy career. Even Morrison didn’t follow that timeline: her first novel wasn’t published until she was nearly 40 and had worked for a number of years as a teacher and then an editor at Random House. And she didn’t quit that day job until urged to do so by Gottlieb in the mid-1970s, after “Sula” was published.
So what’s holding us up? Sometimes it’s just the ordinary difficulty of juggling family, writing and earning a living. But African-American writers also speak of a larger problem of what I’d call internal or cultural permission. It’s just plain harder to decide to be a writer if you don’t have a financial cushion or a long cultural tradition of people going out on that bohemian limb. Consider the case of Edward P. Jones. He published his first book, “Lost in the City,” in 1992 (he was 41 at the time) to much critical acclaim and a number of significant honors, if not huge sales. He returned to his day job at Tax Notes magazine, where he remained until he was laid off 10 years later. He then wrote “The Known World” in about six months — though he told me he’d been thinking about it nearly those whole 10 years. The novel won the Pulitzer Prize.
When asked why he didn’t make the leap to full-time writing sooner, Jones spoke firmly: “If you’re born poor or you’re born working-class, a job is important. People who are born with silver spoons in their mouths never have to worry. They know someone will take care of them. Worrying about not having a job would have put a damper on any creativity that I would have had. So I’m glad I had that job.”
The problem isn’t just money, says Randall Kenan, a 1994 Whiting Award winner who published two critically acclaimed books of fiction in 1989 and 1992, and two nonfiction books since 1999: “I think among middle-class black folk, it’s still a struggle to validate literature as a worthy way to spend your time.” ZZ Packer, the author of the story collection “Drinking Coffee Elsewhere,” who is currently at work on a novel, said the situation is somewhat different for those who are younger. (She is 34.) “People who came half a generation before us were the first ones to begin to go to elite colleges in larger numbers,” she said. “They were beholden to a lot of their parents’ expectations, namely, that if you go to a prestigious school, you’re going to become a doctor or a lawyer, you’re not going to ‘waste your time’ writing. People who are around my age have seen blacks in the Northeastern establishment for a while. … They don’t always feel the same obligation to ditch their dream for something more practical.”
It saddens me to think of the dreams that have been ditched, the stories that haven’t been told because of racism, because of fear and economic insecurity, because that first novel didn’t move enough copies. I hope to see the day when there are more of us at the party (and the parties), when the work of African-Americans who tell our part of the American story well receives the celebration, and the sales, it deserves.
Martha Southgate’s most recent novels are “The Fall of Rome” and “Third Girl From the Left.”
