despite complaining that i was bored and uninspired last week, i’ve been working ever since then, putting the final touches on my thesis. i managed to find some secret reservoir of energy, and have been spending every free moment fiddling around with line breaks, removing unnecessary words, adding slight punctuation, nudging photos, reading, re-reading. whew! i’m actually starting to feel a stiff neck and headaches from being at the computer so much, but i’m just so excited. i have never invested so much into one project. this is my baby. i just want to dress my poems in their best and send them on their shining & merry ways. gosh, i love poetry. i actually had a mini-epiphany today. i was waiting for the trolley after (barely) seeing (more like overhearing) joan didion read at kelly writers house, when i ran into a former co-worker of mine, who is also a writer. it gave me so much pleasure to tell her that i would be starting my mfa in the fall. like i am actually going to try to be a writer, and have all of my time dedicated to trying to be a writer, and hang out with other people who are trying to do the same thing. i’ve already had a taste of it here and there in undergrad, but i feel like i’m actually getting closer to the real thing. this is exactly what i want to be doing in my life.

luv!

just the bit of uplift i’ve been needing:

i was thinking what a beautiful spring day it was, then, all of a sudden, it started hailing.

new and wonderful things are happening everyday but for some reason i feel stuck. both physically and in terms of being bored and uninspired. this is not a good time for stuckness, as my thesis is due in about two weeks. but oh well. i think i might take a break from the internet. try to catch up on some reading. eat a bit better. all that jazz.

these last couple of days have left me feeling grateful beyond measure. i feel so blessed. i love my life. sometimes in the rush of things i forget to appreciate all that has come my way. so this here is just a little moment of gratitude.

beijos!

e  aí minha gente!  sorry to have disappeared without explanation. stella and i went down to salvador for spring break. even though it was just 10 days, being reunited with boopiece really lifted my spirits. i knew for certain by the second day that brazil will be my home one day. til then, boopiece and i have decided to get started on visa paperwork. since we are both broke as hell, we exchanged a pair of promise rings from a street jeweler. coincidentally, i found out recently that i’m not the only one of the original meninas getting engaged. oh amor…

in other news: i got into grad school! i’ll be going to mills and moving to oakland in august. hopefully spending são joão in salvador, maybe with my sister as a graduation present if plans go accordingly.

over break, i started to contemplate the reformation of my thesis, which is going swimmingly despite the lack of textual evidence.  also finally started reading A Mercy, but i’m not quite sure what to say yet…

more soon.

luv,
adb

sometimes i think i should cut back on my e-social networking then i get messages like the one below:

“salve minha amiga tamo junto espero um dia conhecer a america vem por ai em 2009 um novo cd aguarde. bjo, hood.”

i left my favorite brazilian rapper, rappin’ hood, a myspace comment almost 3 years ago and he hit me back this morning. if you are not familiar with his music, i suggest you get listening.

i just finished watching The Reader, and i must say that, as usual, the book was better than the movie. i did appreciate this shot of his library though. that desk is so fly…

found:

my godmom, one of the coolest ladies i know.

re-tweet: i have struggled to read zadie smith’s fiction but this essay is pretty boss: http://tinyurl.com/cqr4c3